New home for the oldies.

Hi people.

My days have been so fruitful. I've been doing some productive things lately which I've been so proud about. My mum doesn't feel so proud of it just because I made a huge mess in the room the other day. Mum, it's just a process hehe. I think I did it just because I got so bored of doing.. nothing. So, to end the boredom that almost made me went crazy, I did a cleaning spree on my closet guys!

I never thought that decluttering a closet can be so tiring and therapeutic at the same time. I legit was sweating while doing that ok? On top of that, I didn't seek for anyone's help. I did it all by myself and I got dizzy afterwards haha. OK all pains aside, I found so many things from my childhood which I got a bit emotional while cleaning up. But, I just had one rule at that time; I gotta move on, and not to get clinged on something in my past. Otherwise, this cleaning spree wouldn't be a success. I have to admit, it was hard at first because you aren't sure whether you want to keep things that you love dearly from your childhood days or just get rid of the things because they don't do you good anymore. There are magazines and report cards which I obviously didn't want to throw away of all my grades records (even though some are really bad ones) and those silly poses for the class photo hehe. OK, so for something that I wouldn't get anywhere else, I keep it. And for something that I can let go because I've grown out of the phase, in the bin you go!

There are also some souvenirs that I didn't get to give people. You know during primary school, if you go for holidays, you intended to buy souvenirs for your friends. But, when you're in school, you're too shy or too late to realize that you forgot to buy for the rest of the other 10 friends, so you ended up not giving to any of them. Hah, I was that girl. So, there are so many key chains and pouches from Korea and Beijing. Got fridge magnets too. In case you guys want to have some of them, hit me up ok! Because I tried to get it off from Mom's radar. So, gotta get rid of them quickly. I can just give it for free, consider that as a souvenir from me and I remembered you. But, if you live so far away from Shah Alam and I need to deliver it to you by post, you pay for the delivery fee can ah? Haha.

Hence, moving on to the clothes. Fuh, I don't even know where to start. There are so many old clothes that I haven't been wearing for quite some time. There are also some unworn clothes that I couldn't even bother to wear because it just didn't suit my style 7 years ago. So Mum made a suggestion for me to create a Carousell account to sell those old clothes because some of them still look nice and they are still in good condition. OK, don't come for me too soon. If you are wondering why doesn't she just donate the clothes instead of selling them? The reasons why I think selling them is the best way;

1. They are not simply t-shirts that everyone can wear (unisex clothes) hence, if I just want to give them away, I need to know my target.

2. Some clothes look new and they are unworn, hence if people actually make a purchase, I hope that they can be really appreciative of things that they buy with their own money. Because, I still prefer my old clothes to be in good hands.

3. Save the environment of course! Guys, our world is getting sick :-( and I can't afford to see it even more dying. I don't want to just throw them away while they can still be well-taken care of.

So guys, help me to find a new home for my preloved items! I love these clothes so much that I want you guys to wear and love them as much as I did. So, hurry up guys and find me on Carousell app;

username: @newhomeforpreloved

If you are the potential home provider, thank you so much in advance! I love you and let's make this world a better place ok!

Dayana

2020

Hi everyone.

Oh my God, this blog has been really dusty. I have not blogged since ages. I have mixed feelings but all I know is I miss blogging where I don't have things to rush about. I write whenever I want to. There are so many entries that I saved in the Drafts section, that couldn't make it to the blog entry. I know that people are not actually waiting for my come-back haha, but I, myself really miss this. I think it's much easier to express things that I want to say but too shy to say it out loud by blogging. So, here I am. And wow, it's 2020 already like what? 

OK guys, I'm not sure if you guys are like me. But, as cliche as it may sound, everyone keeps talking about new resolution when it's New Year's Eve. Personally, I don't really have one when people ask me because I usually just go with the flow. I just let myself grow and make some room for improvement as time passes by. And by the end of the year, I can just look at my archived stories on Instagram and see how much I've grown. Because I literally posted every single thing I do on Instagram, haha sorry not sorry. 

However, this year is going to be different. I actually do have a resolution. I wanted to start new with my life and write more. In this way, I get to share with you guys about my journey and also, this is something that I want to look back by the end of the year. To be really honest with you guys, something happened to me and I've been missing in action for few months already. As for now, I am not ready to tell you what I've been up to. But, one day maybe, insyaAllah.

I am making this come-back (let's hope that I can do this consistently) because I want to search a light of new hope and start to surround myself with positivity again.

For those who are having hard times at this point of your life, be patient. Good things will definitely come. Keep on praying, don't give up. Because the last time I did, it really took a toll on my health. You are a strong person, and you are unique. I believe that there's something for everyone. It's just a matter of time.

Dayana

Ticked off.

Hey. How's 2018 treating you so far? I was playing with my apps in my phone and I came across this bucket list that I made a year ago, I think. So, I just thought it might be fine to share it here. It feels so surreal that I've ticked off some of the things that I really wanted to do before I die just before 2017 ended (no, I'm not dying but it's called a life bucket list for a reason). When I made that list long time ago, I thought that nah, I wouldn't tick off any of those. But, when I finally did, it made me realized that nothing is impossible if you work hard for it. Haha, I'm sorry for the not-updated date since I just ticked those off just now. 

Except now I need to make some clarification to avoid misunderstanding, probably also for me to read this post back in 10 years from now. I tend to forget easily right in the future, who knows. Regarding the Italy trip, I thought that I might end up going there soon when I'm married. But, it got 10 times better that I managed to do it with my friends and I feel so glad to share the experience with them. Well maybe someday, I'll go with someone special okay. You know, people were right about it's not about the place, it's the people who make you feel at home.

I hope 2018 will be continuously treating everyone good.

Dayana

Bring it on.

Hello, people.

Where did the time fly so fast? Come on, it's 2018 already! It feels odd that I am now away from my family for the New Year's Eve. Every 1st of January in the morning, I would wake up in the morning just to tell jokes like "hey it's been a year I've been sleeping" to my family and they will get annoyed. I know you would say it's a lame joke but yeah, they just bear with it. Celebrating New Year's Eve every year is just the same at home, probably ever since my siblings are all grown up, we don't go all the way to KL to watch the fireworks anymore. But in Bristol, it's just so different that my flat feels so empty because people went back home to celebrate Christmas Day and followed by New Year's Eve. What I love about this holiday season, they also gave us wish cards which I think that's very thoughtful of them to do so. Hence, we also replied their wishes by sliding the cards under the door and we think that's cute!

I would say that I ended 2017 gracefully. I went to Italy during the winter break with my friends from college. Even though we had a bad start, but the whole journey made it all worth it in the end. I am so happy that we survived in Italy with complete strangers with zero English. We just couldn't believe that we actually went to Italy - just the four of us, I would add, just girls. I feel so relieved that I managed to explore Italy and planned the whole trip by ourselves. It's quite an experience for us and we sure had a lot to learn from this trip. I usually just waited for my mum to join her for any holiday trip, but this time around, it was all at our own risk. No tour guide, no guaranteed insurance, just us girls. I would say that it was a success that we are still alive now.

Despite all these joy, I also got a shocking news 3 days ago. My mother got admitted in the hospital which I am very worried about. It's nothing serious so far since further check-up by the doctor will be done soon. I hope everything will be just fine for her. Knowing that there's nothing I can do now sucks that I can't be there for her. But one thing that I know is she is one strong woman and she'll do anything to get back on her feet and discharge faster because she can't eat anything she wants now. Wishing you a Get Well Soon, Ibu! 

Also, I have final term exam in 10 days' time. I haven't studied a thing yet because I basically don't know where and how to start. I should probably start now, Mum would be freaked out if she knows about this. Catch up soon!

And I hope I'm still not too late to say this, may you'll have a great year ahead and start some new fresh resolutions for this year and be a better person you would ever dream to be. For those who think 2017 had been a tough year, just smile that you made it! A person you are now may be partly due to what happened in the past. Let's strive to make a wonderful year ahead and in order to do so, we must start somewhere. Happy New Year!

Dayana

Being away.

Hey there.

I don't know whether I am being so self-centered or not. But, I seem to enjoy writing on my blog even with the fact that nobody will ever read. But what to do.. I love writing! It's just that I've been busy with university stuff. Speaking of university, whoever said degree life is not going to be hectic, surrender yourself! Because it really is. Half of me is struggling with this current life I'm living. I mean, I am grateful for this blessing to study here but I get tired easily nowadays. Despite the jetlag I was suffering the other day, I slept early at around 8 pm. But, I'm recovering now hehe. 

Back to the business, I am so happy here. Not gonna lie that being a minority group here (being a Malaysian) is hard. I tend to force myself to squeeze in the group of local people here because if not, they're not going to talk to you the day after that. I gotta try to have a topic of the conversation. Once it's ended due to my awkward response, I have to be fast enough to divert into another topic. Man, buying birthday presents for my family are not this hard okay. But, you know there's always a silver lining about this. This has taught me to be true and be brave enough to say Hi and introduce myself. Instead of being silent and not knowing what to talk about, I just need to break the silence and just ask questions as simple as "how's your day going?". Yep, because they keep asking me that question every time we come across each other so why not? Hehe. But a simple act of kindness may create something huge right. Also, living in a student accommodation there are lots of local students here and they seem really nice and accepting. But being an Asian as I am, I tend to do everything by myself. I don't know why maybe it's just me being so multi-tasking so I prefer doing everything at a time and alone. I enjoy socializing and engaging with people but sometimes you just need a me time. If you get me, come and give me a virtual hug. 

Regarding my family, even since I'm here, my mother never fails to ask about me and my day. Facetime, Whatsapp, Snapchat, Twitter, Instagram etc. You name it - she uses every social media to engage with me. This is why I love Internet! Haha my mother is busted. Now I realize that being thousands miles away from your family, you're just making your family miss you even more and everything makes me teary when I first got here. My first phone call with Mum also made me shed tears because she wanted to sleep already. Different timezone really sucks. Also, writing a birthday speech for her made me cry. And then, I noticed that my father didn't even hug me for so long on the day I left - literally only 3 seconds. He was being strong as he always is, we assumed. But, I could see that he just wanted me to see how strong he was and let me be stronger. Put aside all the ego, he's being a gem even more after I left. He's always home compared to before. He's good at buying groceries and fruits when Mum's not around. He basically continues what I always do at home minus being sleepy at all times part. My brothers always gives my mum a company whenever she needs one without any sigh or complaints even for a small reason. Somehow, I feel that my departure brings everyone together.

Talking about E, he's doing just fine there in Sheffield. OK, people say it's not a valid long distance relationship if you're in the same country. But 300 miles away from each other is a long distance already! As usual, we keep our conversations simple and minimal because both of us have assignment and work to do in a day. I love us being like this, know our priorities and which should come first. Hopefully, we get to reunite in December during winter break. Overall, I love being here in Bristol. I tend to make a lot of self-development and also develop my cooking skills - okay, gotta talk more about this later. I also have some Malaysian friends here and also make me accompanied during weekends - so, don't worry guys I still have my social life to run.

Dayana