Monday, October 22, 2012

This leads to my future.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.


Hi humans, oh how I really miss blogging. I do really miss my blog, so much! Um I guess, enough with the dramatic action. So, I am officially saying that I'm done with PMR week. It was finally over and I guess, it was a success. Yay for me? No, I think I can't really enjoy this moment of 'joy' since I've been thinking a lot about the result. Will it be worse? Or better? As you may not know, I am not one of the smartest students in school which achieves good results most of the time. Maybe I'm in the middle, which I still feel grateful about that. Ugh I feel like running away till the result is being announced. Some people might think that we don't have to think about it now, maybe later. Now, it's freedom time. Escape for awhile from all things we've been carrying on our shoulder. But, I don't think I'd like that 'awhile' word. Ugh, I've been talking to myself about this. Future. What if I choose the wrong path? 

To be a successful human, not only on earth. But also in akhirat. During azan, we are also being heard Hayya 'Alal Falah and Falah means success. Just be what you're capable of. I'm not doing this for only myself, but also for my parents. I want to make them proud of me, having me as their daughter. Yeah, at first I had some issues of choosing some option for my class next year. I want A, but Mom wants B. Let's just say, our decision are not the same. She acted like she knows everything good about me. I was devastated at first, since we didn't have the same thoughts. But then, I realize she knows the best. Second person who knows you well besides your own self is, Ibu, Mama, Mummy, Umi, Bonda, Mak; our mother. So I think, I'm gonna go with the flow. Who knows this decision will lead me to a bright future someday. Plus, having a blessing from our parents about what we're doing is something I always wish for. Maybe I haven't been a good daughter to them, so that's why I take this challenge to change everything. Get back on track, to be exact. Pure Science class, if only I get 6A's and above. InsyaAllah, all I can do now is, tawakkal and leave it all to Allah.

Dayana